From Hollywood to you happy new year!

I can't believe it its almost the last day of the 2008 now, dreams wishes fantasies secrets desires and many many more achieved lived laughed left behind only you and me continue to the next, a new page of life a new day new birth, you can not say you have lost, no, you only gained so much, so much your heart can not even remember, yes my friend we all received because we have given, we give our romance our love our compassion our beauty our talent our gift our help our hand and our heart to that special someone we care so deep and she or he cares for us too till today and continue...... life never die, love never die, our beauty and the steps that we stepped on will always remember and sing the sound of our heart's gentle touch through the eyes of the wind, through the air we breath, through your own faith........



Give, this is what we have and what we can do to others and what we are here for, give and give all you have to the light that brights your spirit........

because this is our magic.......just this simple.



Greatful I am for you, for the love for the beauty for the breath taking magic that we tangled for that even a tiny little smile you have ever given to me for your good wishes......



It was a beautiful year for me, because I have danced and shouted out loud and reflected all the lights that the generous sun has ever shine upon me to you my love and my friends......



A new year a new birth a new journey a new fresh breath that you are going to take in the cold snow just when you wake up and opens your sensitive eyes your warm door and touches you bare feet for the first time on the cold ground like a new born baby breath breath heard as if this entire world and us just there for you.......



Its safe darling yes its safe because we are all here only for you with all of our heart all of our love all of our power and all of ours and nature's magic......



Just breath and walk with only your beauty......



Happy new year!!!!!!!



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Greetings from the beautiful blue sea.......

I missed you!

Thank you for your thoughts gifts and good wishes my friend........
Did you have a lovely Christmas? I hope you did, I had a lovely one and lost in a sexy naked dream flirting with moments of passing life......

Colorful like the rainbow full of surprises and gifts including the ones from you my friend that I am thankful.......

Can you believe it? Its the end of December and the sea is still colored in blue with its romance heated with love of the precious sunlight, music...... it brings the warmth of the hot summer back directly into my body and your spirit, Nature is amazing, a lot of times we depend on its mood to effect us to guide us to lead us to flirt with our imagination and dream.......I got lucky to be bathed in the pouring sunlight like I am in a hot morning shower naked......

Nice Christmas I did a lot and relaxed a lot too, party dinner Karaoke porker helicopter boating flirting the steps of dance fallowed me so close wherever I go.......and played with my magic Qiji too....... For her everyday is the new year's eve.......

Still feel strange because I have lost holidays since I landed in America, what's the meaning of Christmas? New Year? Celebrating? Regretting? Looking forward to something new? Forgeting something old? But What does it mean if life is only existing in the moment of now?

???????.......

Still I am thankful for the moment passed in front of me that I can clearly see, time by time piece by piece wonder by wonder and I forgot what it is really passed by thinking of the moment but its already gone just the moment when I realized its sexy shape, how can I touch and see?

Life has no meaning in our genius unconscious but in the magic of our universe.......

I love the sea the light the color and the open positive spirits that brights a pure happiness like the wind the fire coming in full speed right this second directly towards you.......

Keep smiling my friend because this is how and why life will smile back to you with its naked secret.......


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Me and Qiji wish you a merry Christmas and happy new year......

Naked seduction------yes its true, this is what I do, this is what I do the best to seduce you with the nakedness, naked emotion naked heart naked mind and naked confession, naked, naked soul and naked compassion, I seduce you with the pure naked me and my naked love, I seduce you like a woman, I seduce you like your best friend, I seduce you like you, I seduce you with the distance only on the other side of the computer.......

Seduce with the nakedness, with danger........

Thank all of you my friends to be here with me step by step, either it was raining or sunny either it was windy or misty, tears wet my vision and smile blind my happiness, but you are here no matter where I am in the world.......no matter how the season has changed again........

I am often alone when I am writing you, lying in my bed in the car on the street in the sanna room or in a place I do not noticed or know or remember.......I write you everywhere I go but with the truth of my heart like an open wound, I am talking about wound is because it is the best way to describe the nakedness, I can only tell you how I feel rather than make something up, I know sometimes it does not make sense, but just like life itself, the mystery only revealed when next chapter is already shows its spring.......

I am lucky to have all of you, I am lucky to have landed here to be your friend and to make you my friend, I feel confortble writing you my thoughts and the melody of my life my romance and my worderd soul, thank you for allowing me to be me, to show my sweetness and craziness, to share, to take you one step farther into the freedom of your own soul, don't judge, don't judge yourself, life is life, like water like air like fire, it moves with the blood of passion to reach the potential of who we are, you can only be the most brilliant by being truly the most extraem and beautiful of who you really are, we all have a gift and we all are stars........

I am your friend but most importantly I am your mirror, only reflects you.......

Send you a big hug and a big smile.......

May you with your loved ones making the most beautiful love tonight.......


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Lunch in the middle of the blue sea........

Anything can be more pleasent than having lunch in the middle of the blue sea? This is the beauty about living in Los Angeles, blink of eye you could just be lost in the ocean with only the water the sky the wind the bird and you and your friends.......



What a beautiful sunlight welcomed us with its warmth and the flirting lights, we all undressed in its hot temperature watching the far away city become smaller and smaller until it become children's toys lost........



Boat drifting on it own while we are having the hot lunch, I opened every boxes that is there, dessert more dessert, so many fun boxes with it secret, sweet dessert, can you imagine even if I just have 2 bite of each one, then after 22 of them I have already eat a week's meal.......I drink champaign and wine and the joy of the sunlight........



Believe it or not I danced on the top of the boat with music coming from the bed room left us so quickly to the deep sea.......



So pleasent when you forget of everything, even forget yourself when you in the middle of the sea.........



Joy makes you happy, gives you the meaning of real life.......



I send you a page of joy as you forgot the words then a beautiful rose opens........



Happy holidays my friends.......





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Fun Concert last night........

What a surprise suddenly a friend just calling me and ask me if I want to go to a concert and pick me up, as also something just happened today a friend asked me if I would like to go boating, and I said yes!

I love surprises, because it sparks the free spirit!

It was in the new Nokia theater the concert, and just newly opened, so beautiful there, just out side where the theater is in Down Town LA, standing the tall buildings shouting out load that they are not afraid of the earthquake! It just reminded me of those shopping districts in Asian, so big and fancy and colorful bright lights and happy people and life, I can suddenly see people out there looking for holidays on the ground, I liked it very much as I am myself looking for the holidays everywhere on the ground and in people's eyes, as if there is a hidden book that shows you the secret of everything ...... Did I find it? Hu..... Good question!

So many people dressed up just for the 3 band about to play for the night, which I have not heard of any of them, of cause I have not heard of anything, so does not mean that if I have not heared it that they are not good or famous, just that I am not famous for knowing those things, because I am not from here...... Yes the moon, you guessed right of cause, the mysterious moon........ We don't have band up there, we just yell and shout out load the way we wanted, every one is a rock star, rock your world, rock star is not a job in the moon, we all are naturally a rock star, yes let's party on the moon with the crazy moon style!

First band is called the Crackers, sounds like a bag of popcorn pupped out, they are OK, kind of blinded into anyone's conversation, I went into the VIP room and had a glass of white wine, quite relaxed trying to look like those dressed up 2 gentleman I was with, sometimes I was wondering, what if I was a man and how would I think at this moment, they are with me obviously they cannot flirt with other girls, If I were them would I flirt with other girls? I would, because I am not their girl friend, but they did not, shows me the respect...... the theater was elegant, huge, but the stage was really nice, I would like to performe there one day, I set upstairs really nice view, then the 2nd band really gets me so excited, I danced like crazy, I mean crazy, it was so much fun, because the lead singer he just does not give a shit, he just have fun lost in his own ducked up attitude and he just owns it, I like that spirit, so free lost in his own mood and just opend up a fire with us in music, I think he is kind if high but in a nice new York way, the band is called : New York dolls, really cool, then there were 2 girls dancing too and they say to me: I want your body baby! What dose that mean? you look sexy! they shouted! We all danced sexy and crazy and happy........
Anyway I was kind of high, I drink because my friend picked me up and I don't have to drive, then the 3rd band is called X, and they just tried too hard, nice music but kind of the same each song and the girl dressed up like a farmer, you will not believe it its better when I close my eyes and then even to my surprise I found myself fall a sleep in the loud and heavy music like I was totally drugged, maybe it is the wine? Or the girls? Or some one's text message showed up? Or something else from another space? But I enjoyed the new York dolls, they are cool!

Sharing with you while the holidays is just around the corner, kind of scary when the holidays look at me with their big crossed eyes this close to my nose........

Next one I will show you my boat trip, lunch in the middle of the sea in the beautiful sunlight, so pleasant.......

Hope you are having a good Sunday evening baby......

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I am an animal just like her......

I am an animal just like her, but brightens your life and dreams day and night.......

I will lead you to a magic, a magic only, only if you fallow my laughter step by step with no regret.......

Look, look into my eyes, a secret a gift a magic stored for you, you the only.......

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She gives me happiness

Tender sweet, like the morning sunlight, like the moon lights our universe, like a lover gives me joy, like like like ......

Awake for the holiday to come then Passing by me like a bright shadow, like the southern wind blow my mind into pices of leaves fly to the sea, it all blurred like the sun mist coverd me and Qiji's face, covered the world in front of you, blinding us and your vision.......

How can I count time and how can I know what time it is if I have no watch? Day and night? Just like when you make love time don't matter, and nothing exist........

I am tired but I am still looking, looking for my time to awake......

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We can concur you.......

Just 2 of us, you are ready?

Why is Los Angeles so cold? I was in a party, it just unpleasent when you dressed up and trying to have fun, the whole time I was just standing under a hearter like I was cooking a meal of myself, my hair is burned but feet are still cold, you know those English feet, are or is? Foot or feet? How many? I am still confused about those gramer of English, hard to remember, its like open a new part of your brian, surgery, tied, but why not sleep? But I am sall asleep right now......

Can't write it anymore......
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I am taking my Qiji to a photo shooting

She is a star, gorgeous crazy and faisty and so fast in a split second she is already fly from the bed to the other side of the roof....... But so graceful and effectionate, sometimes she is dangerous, but sometimes she is like an angel, unbleiveblely sweet, she is going crazy in the car and watching the landscape passing her by like a confused chaos....... She watches everything, out side of the window a little Christmas affair just awakened in her little eyes like a dream......

Just want to share her with you, because I love her......

And she whispers to me in her own way saying: I love you too......

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Me with Oliver stone, Mickey Rourke, and Frances Fisher.......

Premiere of fox sreachlight "The wrestler"



What a pleasure to watch a film acted by real actors and a real director with very controlled and moving performance, with the director's controlled meticulous sharp and intense power.......

It was surprise for me to watch a movie this way that disturbed by it, but I did enjoyed it, because the artists in the movie planed so well that it made me uncomfortable in witch it was supposed to be.......

Anyway it was nice to be in the academy theater feel the seriousness of what we do and makes you want to do more, so many food, no I mean so many good people in the industry were there last night of cause good food too, I eat 3 scoops of espresso ice cream and cookies, sounds scary but that's what I enjoy, lucky that I am not that fat, I guess the deserts just passing through me, maybe they don't really like moon girl?

I had fun and want one day soon to have a role like that to rock the world and to rock you......

Yes I will for sure, either by the director of this film Mr.Darren Aronofsky( he has a beautiful actress wife, why not me have one? I am only kidding, I like men too much) or Mr.Oliver Stone, bigger than life, so intellectually complicated sharp yet at the same time very innocent, or other talented directors, you know I always like Mr. Steven Soderbergh, modern unique, sexy, and brilliant, I can smell that marvelous character is on its way to surprise me, it was so tempting when you watch something that disturbs you and gets to your heart and you know that you can so well disturb it back.......

Inner power and passion that we are gifted as an artist, its like a dangerous vocanal with its brilliant burning fire that is ready to break the sky break your heart in the instinct second just when you turn your head left.......

Passion is what we are live for, that instance poison breaks the unexpected magic......



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Sweet dreams my darling......

This is how we fall asleep, Qiji and me, sweetly gently with the heavy rain drops making music out side of our window like little sleeping pills accidentally dropping into the duck swimming pound dissolving into little white snow flowers like a music sheet waves a tiny little sound one after another bouncing back to the sky with me and qiji witnesse its magic in our sweet peaceful dreams.......

So tender....... As if the entire world hinds in its sweet bed room just for us........

Qiji and me love the raining night, 8 little magic dropped down from the sky with the rain and turned into 8 little sexy girl showing off their short short little tiny mini mini skirt......
Running in the pink rain with their little bear feet........little tiny movie plays in the dreams of my and Qiji's......

Qiji send you a little kiss with her innocent gentle heart, I love you she says......
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I made myself into a mirror, only reflects you.......

Parties passing by carries people noises drinks and warmth of lights, boats passing by carries color music and smiling faces in the dark, you are passing by me carry my blessing just as I am passing by you carry your prayer......



Holiday makes people kind just as people giving joy like a gift back to the sky......



How strange to think that most of the people I met tonight that most likely I will never see them again, never? Never as if they have never acrossed me in life, by knowing this actually makes me more aware of the people I met and connected...... give them your love and smile, even to a stranger, cherish the moment when your eyes see through the other soul, because you might never have the same touch ever again........



Funny the naked girl picture I found in their bathroom, do you know the story? I do don't, just thought it looked funny and unique......



There was a boat show at 6pm in where I live, people are happy and smiling and gathered on the side walk of the sea, watching, watching our time slipping away like the breath in the sea.......

happy holidays my friend!
Happy birthday my friend!


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