I watched how the beautiful warm sun went home and the moon left home at the same time..... Sky changed color, desert changed its temperature...... lights, life, romance for a few hours of happiness lived in front of me , then it all went away so sudden left only the darkness stands just 2 house away watching me with a cold eye, shooting dances on our feet out side, but inside those litte rooms people just sleeping on the floor in the hall way or anywhere if there were a heater......
Closed my eyes, took my shoes off, turning left and right, fighting with the uncomfortable little cast chair on set waiting, and just when I about to start a dream, then there was the director calling me again, it was a long night till finally the sun had its rest and showed its warm face again.
Day lights blind every cornor of the desert, wind made a left turn as I walked into my hotel with my eyes closed, how am I going to sleep now? Will I wake up early or just sleep whole day? If so how can I sleep again this evening? Or, I just count the stars through my 17th floor window?
I remember when I was shooting "Shanghai baby" in Shanghai, I lived on the 38th floor in the hotel right above the Huang Pu river, many times when my film took my time and reality away, I always stood there nose touched the big window and wondering: what if one evening or early morning I just jump through my 38th floor window to the traffic jammed busy river? will it take me to where I supposed to go?
Falling sleep now, don't really know what am I writing, maybe I will write it all over again when I awake?
Good Saturday to you!
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