What is wind made out of?when your heart is open to hear the music of the universe.......Hot intelligent mysterious dangerous funny and crazy nice the perfect Bond girl I could make and the new mission impossible 4!!! I was dating a super handsome western man when I was in China, he came to my film set and showed me the Bond movie and I could not understand cause I could not speak English then, but still I laughed at the fun....... I had so much trouble dating an western man back then in China, I was removed from a lead role I was playing because I was dating him (but now the new China you can date even the person from the moon or sun) ........he had an excuse to teach me English send car to take me to those fancy top hotel restaurants only westerners can go, I only learned one word of English from him: " So long." So we so longed........funnyOpen....... I am the door, please enter..........
blues so deep............ yet bright..........
White night colores the romace, lets kiss.............
Which way? which door? whats inside???
I always love the army uniform not the violence but maybe its because I was in the army waring it for 3 years...... I miss Tibet so much!!!!!!!!
This is the most fancy crowded shopping district in Cheng du, we are tired of shopping so get coffee played cards, Starbucks? this picture was taken by my mother's boy friend, they way how he moved his body and the camera just made us all laugh so much, cause he could not find me, of cause the camera lens was zoomed in way to close how can he find me? in fact he can not find anything, but it was so hilarious.....
My sister with her 4 boy friends from all over the world, wait the very top right one is a women, I did not know she likes woman too??? don't ever tell her I said that, she has no make up on and never do, but i think she is beautiful...... do you???
I am there too, what should I buy? actually I did not want anything just want to buy my family something, I brought my mom 2 pares of earring and a nice ring, its hard to buy anything for her because she just dose not want me to buy her anything, finally I said I am going to buy it if you don't like it, just give to someone.....
Look how crazy!!! this is just one store I passed by there are millions.....and millions of people shopping everyday, wonder if they are just like me no job no work just shop, they all from states shopping for mom?
I am waiting for you in the middle of the streets, where are you? lost? its easy to get lost as I did many times, even when I went to the lady's room could not come back find my family, funny finally my mom's boy friend find me wondering in a store bought a jacked and they have 8 young guys all recognized me and shocked they found me in their store, they say we have never meet such a big star before in their life!!! They were so excited, they take me to every stores has new cloths and took many pictures with me, but I did not have make up on and eat so fat. Big star? wait till they see Angelina Julie!!!
My thoughts lost at this moment........ I don't even remember what I was thinking..........but I cleaned the floor like this since when I was a child, especially in Tibet, we have to get up early to clean the floors everyday at 6:30am, was beautiful over the snow mountains to play and watch the leaves dance on my feet......
Read the sign Si Chuan Da Xue, This is the university where I growing up, such sweet memories so much........i used to ride bicycles everyday, when I was learning it I ride directly into the trees many times just aimed to the trees don't know why, then came home bleeding, my parents thought I was fighting with the school boys again and beat me up, can you believe it??? anyway my mother is a professor at this university one of the 8 best university in China, yes this is my sweet home with sweet memories of cause lots of boys, one of my mother's student was madly in love with me, he actually sing under my window, we live on the 3rd floor I thought he was crazy ......... he was so much older than me and my mother dose not allow me to have a boy friend then........ they are many students from the army waring uniform, I think that"s where I get the idea want to join the army cause I love the uniform especially on woman so pretty..............
Just love this photo, could be anywhere in Asia, and the Chines character on it, wish you could read.......one of the most beautiful language in the world......
Those are the bells of make a wish, then it will become true....Make a wish, what is yours? so many choices in life so many wishes in our dear heart, but what is yours? Yes I made my and I am not telling you.........a beautiful and sweet one and its going to become true........
because of color we smile, its like the rainbow, flash its essence..........
Hot pot the famous Chengdu food, its crazy hot spicy delicious yet addictive like drugs, I love it, not only the food but the feeling that is unspeakable about the beauty and the craziness the renege and the mystery of my home town, you will only knowing it by trying it with you open pleasure........... I will show you if you come to my home town........
the danger and the pleasure normally is the same, it connected that's why its addictive, look how red and how oily and how spicy many ingratiates in it, but the Chengdu girls love it and we eat so much still we are skinny and hot ......... its not what you eat, its how you eat!!!
What time is it? I am super drunk!!! get me a taxi to go to karaoke........cannot eat anymore, I through up one night by eating too much wow this is crazy!!!!!!!!!why Chinese people always eat eat eat???????
Smoking drunk that's what you do when I go out without my parents, this is the bird nest I am having, the most expensive healthy thing you can find in China these days, but I can't test any difference, this restautart is way too fancy in stands in any country, when you walked in its all decorated in silver and gold starts from the floor windows doors and chairs and people's faces, way too much, but I ordered the most expensive wine on the list, why not? someone has to pay for the house, I am drunk anyway and smoke way too much, look how red I am......... but don't tell my parents........
Well I wil be happy just to do that serve you, my parents don't care what I do in the west, they asked me to just live in Chengdu, maybe open a karaoka lounge become a sexy singer, my mom likes to sing, but my father does not like night life, just chill........play games and Ping Pang and Wei Qi and drink only the best Chinese white wine......
I am about to go crazy on this one, early morning in my father's home, my mom my dad every one just keep feeding those strange wired food to me 24 hours a day like I have never eaten before, like if I was an alien landed on earth for the very first time..........wow can you let me know what are these 2 red boats flouting in an what???
I entered an marriage in the happy valley be accident, just walked in with my dad sister and step-mom for lunch then there was this beautiful wedding........nice. When would I get married? I really want to, before I was just saying it but now I know the meaning.......... and would like to fall in love deep........
delicious food in Happy valley, with flowers attracted the butterflies but where are they? yes its there if you stop searching and close your eyes.........like music, often you can hear the true melody when you close your eyes....... yes the sound echos from the distance but so near......I am hearing the beauty now......... its in your own heart, in your sweet sensitive soul........
Look how my home town Chengdu is like a beautiful modern painting, so proud I am, look how the mystery colored the city..........
oops......... in where the center street chairman Mao stands.......... it was a sunny beautiful day, we were late for my father's from my mom, like 4 hours late at noon time, is your sleeping erotic dream time???
I was trying to get a good shot of our chairman Mao while my sister is driving, of cause she either was way too slow or they police just think she was hot, they stopped us and without even ask anything wrote my sister a ticket and my sister was mad, cause in China the fine is high and you can loss your license just like that, then my sister says suddenly: " you know this is Bailing, its because she wants chairman!" surprised for me cause my sister never like to mention anything about me what so ever, then the young police man sticked his head all the way in our car and give me a long good look, " My god really is Bailing?! You look prettier in person, my god why......I can't believe it...... they make you look no good in magazines, my god they are stupid..... " and with the brightest smile then the young police officer only wrote my sister a warning ticket and you can have 5 of it for a year, well the police man asked for a picture can you imagine that? So my sister was not mad of me anymore and I made the police officer's day, he sneaked inside our car one more time before let us go like if he forgot his walky talky.......
No comment........ what do you think???
Ma Jiang again? No, I am going crazy if I play one more time......... look at those old men, no young men, Ma Jiang is their life, crazy!!!!!!!!!! They were fighting before this photo was taken, so real as if their dear life was on the line, shooting and lift the chairs, must be the spicy food, new China with the old game........
What's the name of that famous sculptor in Spain? The mischievous child like genes? it reminds me when I was in Barcelona visited those breath taken buildings churches I have admired so much and enjoyed so much, he must be drunk or speedy when he had an idea for a building..... so beautiful.........Yes thank you, it is Antoni Gaudì, I love him what a master!!!
"Yes I am back!" My mini skirt girl says: " Duck China! Can't eat anymore!!! I miss Hollywood number 8....... my god bless America!!! lets get naked and jump!!! Where are my nipples???"
Wow eat agina??? watch your figure girl, you got movie to do, actully I got an offer shooting in Engliand just that day, smile Bailing life is oarswomen!!!!
I was falling asleep while I was playing Ma Jiang, I thought peanut can rescuer me from my day dream of nothing.........I was dream of nothing, have you ever in an awesome dream of dream of nothing but so happy for no reason? I love that feeling, you don't have to smile to be happy but content just like me now while your emotions are peaceful even the wind is so gently touching your lips.....
My mom's army driver, privilege in China if you have a army car and a driver, you can pretty much drive anywhere park anywhere with no worries at all getting any kind of tickets, you basically have the whole police and the rules on your side wherever you are going or whatever you are doing, even we can break the heavy traffic and just go, its heavy traffic these days in China cause a lots of people have cars. Its really cool to feel that freedom under the government ruled communist China. There are freedoms only depends on where you stand, wow!!!
This was taken in the massage place, China made everything everywhere so fancy just to make money, they make us wait so you would forced to take the most expensive serves, otherwise you would have to wait for hours, can you believe it? lost innocence!!! Sad!!! here we just had dinner and eating again, of cause for me I have to, it is the sweet dessert, as you know I cannot resisit, I know it looks disgusting, but tests so deliciouse, with food you can't go by the looks, well for people too? Yes learn about a person on your own not by who said what, especially in hollywood......
I want to tell you a joke but can't think of any, there are many in Chinese, but does not translate into English, like people making jokes in American, everyone laughs but me, they say: you are so cool Bailing, its not funny to you? Actually really was not, sometimes I find people laugh its because everyone else laughs, they don't even know why they laugh they just do, cause otherwise they are afraid people would think they are stupid. But the case for me was, I was not being cool, just that its not funny to me because there is a culture background involved in the jokes which I have never experienced, like those jokes in China all connected to our history food or sex, and believe it or not a lots of them are about our leaders, and really really funny!!!
I think Bailing is tired of the local China life and wants to be a super model in the world just by enough of eating way too much 24 hours a day to fill her sexy little body, she could but give me a break Bailing, not in Chengdu, you have to go to Paris and loss some weight and stop eating and become a gay........What if you are by or bi or.......Bai??? the french call me Beiling.... sounds funny but sexy..........
Sometime questions are not meant to be answered, we all want to know the answers but sometimes there are just none, let the mystery be part of the beauty in our world in our lives and in our mind, its beautiful to not know........
Yes this is the girl went to Tibet when she was 14, its pretty cool when I think of it, really really lucky, it was the most precious experience in my life those 3 year in Tibet. Tibet? How many people have ever been there? How many people really lived there and really know the lives and the real beauty of Tibet? How many actors in Hollywood have ever been there? You cannot know Tibet if you never been there, that"s the place cannot be known by just hear about it or read about it, it is so special that you will have to go there to smell the air and breath the smile and burned by the hush sun and walked days and nights in the brutally cold snow along the mountain lines up so high almost touched the sun and finally lost in the deep dark danger and completely lost oxygen hopelessly facing death........
remember everyday when our army trucks passing by the snow mountains, the beautiful Tibetan girls boys always always wave their hands and smile their brightest smile to us with there teeth and eyes so white reflecting the snow and the sun lights as if they were landed like angels from the above so beautiful...... I can see their smiles even now so vivid like a moving painting....... what a spiritual magic blessed land..... yes I was so so lucky to be lost everyday in the feelings of the tremendous beauty and sadness....... 3 years? I could live there forever.........wait till you read my book
Hi Chairman mao, how many years you have been standing there??? Winter summer autumn and spring....... You almost got my sister a ticket .......... Do you know much of Chairman Mao's story??? The little red book? Our army uniform? And the passion of the patriotism??? China has changed so much so much!!!
This is the new China and the new life of celebration its freedom and beauty, that's what everyone does in China today, dream of life for the better, we don't see homeless people on the streets, people are proud, so proud!!!!!!!!
Will you take me somewhere? I love those old cars, so beautiful and stylish.......... Yes lets go somewhere, I always always love to travel the world........ we have saying in Chinese: if you move a tree it will die, if you move a person he or she will live better.
Wow this is how we ride and drive in Chengdu, at each other to the same direction fast: Yes baby full speed right at me right now, come on don't be shy lets go!!!!!! Yes directly at me!!!!!!!! You can even close your eyes come on drive with all you got GO GO GO!!!!!!!!! Pretty cool and completely crazy!!! Must be the Chinese white wine, Can you imagine of doing that??? Old man and a child??? Spicy hot pot!!!!!!!! Damn cool!!!!!!!!!
Whats wrong with your hair Bailing, matching the mirror? This is the expensive restaurant I told you about, this is the mirror on the wall and everything is wired flashing color, I think one of Bailing's little spirits fits in, cause she is crazy just like this completely crazy place in China........
Breathless, doors opened but there are always more......... inside behind.......who is she? dressed like me? Is she following me................. FBI
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Coffee break, I will sing you a song " I touche myself " for you, funny when I was doing the VH1 singing show, then give me this song, I thought it was porno, Touch myself? I was so crazily hilarious, when I was singing it I did not really knowing the song and never heard it, I had like less than a day to learn. But I think is this one super sexy crazy out of her mind little mini spirit came out of me, she say: " Yes baby, I got your back!!! I am a nature spicy butter hot rock supper star!!! Watch me, let me show you my mini super crazy hot cooked magic you have ever seen!!!" Well I enjoyed showing off her so much then. But it was so funny, I could sing better of that song now, but still I like that original one the best cause it was so funny! I laugh myself when the prince of Brunei played the video for me, he always play this song when I am around, crazy, but I got used to it and actually liked it, him and his hot young friends and me we danced on my song and laughed so hard it was so crazy fun every time! He told me, Bailing whenever I think and hear and play this song, I think of no one but you Bailing, you made it original! well just hope it will make your day or night or your heavy work break or depress day singing with joy and laughter.......... enjoy it and laugh at it, cause I do it myself, as long as it makes you laugh then I am happy.......
Are you texting me? I am texting you from China Chengdu my sweet love.......... the crazy crazy me
24 hours passed I am still here, still here texting you, can you hear me? No wonder I lost my mind, not only I lost my mind, I also lost my make up bag, look behind me right near my butt, that's my make up bag and I lost it, but its an evidence that showed me forever where and how I lost it, me and my mom looked at the picture joked about it every time, and her boy friend just stood there saying nothing but meant a lot, its funny...... wow I just realized how magical the world shows us things so quietly, but always, just 5 munits after I came back it was gone, wondering who is using it now? Hope it is not a man...... well also from that day on I never waring make up anymore in Chengdu, well maybe this is the real reason? I am so happy now!!! Why girls have to ware make up? And guys too? It always freaks me out when I see a man waring make up......... or in the evening waring sun glass........
What's on his face? See when he torturing me the little ghosts paint his face to a map like its burning........ yes I am having the royal treatment in the massage house, not many people dare to try, but I was falling sleep wait too long and decided to try it, it was a long process, he got out all the weird equipments from a shoe man like box, lights a fire, lights another fire, then burns the big bamboo on fire and then immediately sticks it to my feet while it was still on a big fire, it was burning, then he tells me it takes out the poison that is trying to enter my body, wow how great the story is, but I don't buy a thing he is saying, it feels hot and fun that is all, then he burns a big cigar like long incense lights it on fire again then burns my head my stomach and my lower back for like half an hour, it feels strange as if I was exposed to a stranger that looked innocent but might be not...... our great leader Chairman Mao never believed the Chinese Madison, he always use the western doctors when he gets sick, I don't believe it either, but I believe the desire of the believing, the strength the well and the faith that could and will always work on our body, because our mind actually is our great and secret doctor, yes we produce life and magic when we firmly believe.........
I followed her and you know the reason, actually if I am not an actress I would always have my head shaved, it felt liberating free and so cool as if I was just off an awesome shower and still naked..........
My art, one evening late at night like 3am after karaoke, I was in my mom's army driver's car passing the estranged city streets, suddenly out of no where I clicked my camera, there he was.........
I was just Required by Beijing China love foundation to write the lyrics of a love song which will promote LOVE in all of China, they liked my writing in my Chinese Blog ( Sorry have not been wrting there for a while too busy on life) but what an honer, I send it today called: " You are my everything". really really beautiful the lyrics, its the greatest gift to feel and to be in love..........
"Star Wars" in China..............so much fun, George lucus what a genius, I was lucky to be in the very last one!!!
If there is no fun, then there will be no wisdom, you can only live well if you know how to play, through humor life dance its laughter following your steps one by one............
A wonderful story got lost by the internet, tomorrow i will re write here
After dinner looking for a taxi, Chengdu's evening its like a shinny mirror reflects the city's sexy hidden dream, I always got drunk by thinking of you........ the erotic you like a drug........... yes you! Only you in my erotic thoughts and dream in Chengdu !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In the karaoke room: what songs do you like? " Smoke gets in your eye" " Tears in heavy" " You drive me crazy" " I can't help falling in love with you" " 2 butterflies" " I only care about you" "Perhaps in the winter time" " Read you" " I will be right here waiting for you" and much much more songs that I have no clue ........ so much fun in the karaoke room, people are actually going crazy, as if people eats too much and use their voice to paunch some one right at their nose crazily insane!!! almost rude!!! sometimes is unremarkable no I mean unbearable, but when you are drunk then the fun starts.......... but still not for the professional singers, at times I cannot even stand no matter how polite I am........... wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But its almost a magic to have a sexy conversation you can talk about the most erotic things out loud I mean you can shout out loud and no body would even hear..........the whole room is blind by loud crazy off tune sound of awful noises, I think karaoke is a place for mad people for sure!!!
Yes Erotic dance why not, I love erotic dance, my body just take me, and I loved to be lost there as if i never had mind....... plus there is no police, no government leaders there, yes there are some, I am dancing with a local girl sexy, my sister keep asking me to stop cause her friends government leaders are there in a private karaoke room so close, all men, but the music just take me and my body over to another world so high, I could not stop no matter how much even I would want to, but life has its own force and power like fire burns the passion, I was on fire, that"s my nature.........
Sorry my dear sister..........
Each picture freeze a moment, each moment breath a story, each story leads me to life to beauty to memory to wisdom to you.........
Close, close my eyes........
Close, close to you.........
write your story on each picture
I will give you my tomorrow when the sun emerging again from the deep blue sea, from my conscious........
For you only.......
