mbok denok: May 2009

I could not find those pictures with those 5 young boys in the Jacuzzi, invisible black berry how can you see and find anything that is hidden inside? Its like in a complately dark room you are trying to find a needle how possible? I am just so bad at it, but still trying my best, maybe those are not supposed to post? Sometimes we just have to listen, mystery of life always teaches us give us sign in their own way.........

I am so excited in the middle of finding and creating my character Black, you have no clue how cool she is, she is so cool that event to me she is a dark mystery with red shoes, she is so deep and sexy and unknown to me, she is so much more complicated than me and unpredictable and dangerous, and has so much power, and its fun just to follow her lead, tentative I am follow her shadow, its scary the feeling I have but so intriguing and exciting, because I don't really know what she is going to do and who she really is......

Wow, where are those power coming from? her eyes.......

But I will make her a mad magic.........

Again our director is so cool and so creative and trust and daring and imaginative and let me play him? Someone you would imagine as tall as a basketball player in the lakers and powerful like the godfather, in those early powerful beautiful " God father" movies.....

Our director said to me, " I really want you to be in the movie and well I was thinking, I really want to do something with that character Big Black, well then only Bailing can pull that off, because you are a really good actor......." I am grateful, see this is really hollywood, dispide the other side which people always concentrated on, but there are great artists here in hollywood, and I live and work for them, they are so cool, but actually they don't live in hollywood, they are outside of hollywood, but those people who are in hollywood they are actually not hollywood people, they are just there party and trying to make money and flouting on the serface, but the real artists they are in their own sensitive private world and bring their magic elsewhere to hollywood. Beautiful........
like Lucas and Copppla and many more.......

I love and respect people who have the real talent and give their talent with magic touch totally and beautifully to others and to the world, and they make our world a beautiful place, because their art touches our heart and soul, and forever brings tears and laughter like sun shine and rain to our eyes...........

I am so lucky to have worked with so many talented artists, and many more to come, I cherish those time and memories, they are like blooms, like stars, like children always land magic and dreams in my heart and on my journey......

I am lucky...........

More hot pics when I have time find them, and those are all part of my crazy weekend and more..........

The girl with me she is 5 months pregnant, how beautiful is that?
But I won some cute animals home, a bear and another bear and a beautiful cute turtle so I can hold when I am cold, when the wind comes from the far away sea...........

a lovely evening to you my friends...........

Yes, smile, smile at breakfast, smile at lunch, smile at dinner and of cause smile at dessert, smile many times a day like you are taking your vitamins and often and smile all the time, even when you are sleeping still trying to smile big..........Yes, I am not kidding, then only then you will see a light a beautiful light you lighted in yours and others heart...........

Yes I finally found those Casino pics, I was looking for the Big Black in the cold lost Hollywood park Casino, so many lost souls there, after 4 hours I finally set on a table just like Big Black, I fit so well and my soul went directly under the low table, but Big black? Where is he? In the sunset evening with the lights so quickly changing its temper, Big black appeared invisible, he is playing big games with me with sudden hush wind almost lifted me to the Casino's roof and fly directly to the air and I know Big Black is going to drop me all the way down hard smashes me like a little toy to the pavement...........Wow.......it is because I took his soul away?

And finally Yes! I found this pic of 5 boys with me in the hot hot jaccuzzi.............stop! You can't run!